It was also nice to talk to thamsy for nearly 3 hours or so about people, relationships and anything I refused to dabble with for a while.

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A train of thought to consider.

The assumption is you know yourself how much you know about others.

The first question to ask is how much do you know about yourself?

The second question to ask is how much do you know about others?

The third question to ask is how much do you know about how others know you?

The last question to ask is so what if you know it.

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Unless you are doing business with society, you will never know who you are.

Nonetheless, it saddens me that my class is plagued with so many issues….

Some are in eternal conflict, some just lost all hope, some just suffer in silence and the remaining are either confused or totally oblivious.

I can empower some people, but definitely not so many…

Perhaps I didn’t exactly do a very good job sometimes as CT Rep… Not that I don’t want to but I guess I always had things at hand until now when I can take some breather and look at life of normal students.

Sometimes I remember how alone I always felt to go through all the shit alone. Perhaps it ain’t that bad after all now that the sky is really clear and I can lead quite a peaceful life, abstaining myself from anything thwarting my balance.

Other than mugging and training, there is just one last thing I need to do…

Credits of course goes to the “all hail him” cenTaD mentor haha.

After interacting with several people with high authority, I realize they are all zen too.

And I finally realized why it is so important to be zen.

I like the fact that no one can see through me now if I say nothing.

Clearly I am near impenetrable already.

Life is not really a jigsaw puzzle, more like a sliding puzzle. (Those with 8 tiles and 9 slots)

You just keep channeling whatever resources (adjacent tiles) to fill up the emptiness inside.

And then you realize that you have lost something too.

Perhaps its the best analogical argument against perfectionism, or perhaps it is a mere reflection of how humans desperate seek to eliminate emptiness (ranging from passive aggressiveness to silence to any form of emo behaviour).

But most importantly,

we must embrace the world with an open heart, even if we are empty-handed.

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1）黄城夜韵 2012 ＝）

虽然应为私人理由我已无法参与，但是黄城的精神是极为可佳的。能有那么多人共同实现一个梦想，我相信在黄城外是难以找到的。谢谢你们再次呈现的精彩表演！当然，我心中还是理解在台上的三场戏是抵不过三个月的努力。

2）性格分析 ＝O

刚去了个人简历以及面试等之类的一个讲座。很（不）奇怪的，我的的确确是一个很容易闷死，不守规矩，但脚踏实地的人。这个嘛。。就让读者自己判断是什么意思吧。

3）做错的事 ＝\

想起当年，虽然有很多人尝试帮我度过难关，但是时间还是关键，也要靠自己的毅力征服的，但时间也未免太久了吧。。。现在轮到我了，又应该怎么办呢？况且，我也已经快内疚死了，如果有什么能帮上忙的就尽管说吧，我是不会推辞的。

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剩余的事，看着办吧。算的也差不多了，兵营是算不了的。

But I personally think it makes people who understand simply understand much better. You relate to things around you, you don’t relate to facts. In fact, I believe its been mentioned a couple of times on various psychology websites.

Everyone has their own way of communication. I strongly do not believe that I am so fail at communication when using analogies or stories because it has proven largely effective in most cases, especially so when there is a chance to explain the analogy of people don’t get it, or to identify the underlying concepts (ok, apart from the lame jokes). If you think I am the odd one out, go the TED or some other cool site and you get gazillions tons of speakers who start off with a story.

There is nothing wrong with saying things directly. Just that I find that life is plain old boring if we are dealing with matters that require no efficiency whatsoever and not add any colour to it. It’s not even about finding people on the same wavelength (although that’s hard). Its about what is effective and engaging for most people (that one interacts with).

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Went to the baby show today at SSC haha. I will reserve the comments about organizational stuff to myself because I understand where they are coming from.

Nonetheless, it felt good to be able to adapt near-flawlessly to everything despite having no prior notice at all with regards to job scope.

I think i am prepared enough for organizing stuff already. Had enough of it too haha, its a bit boring actually. And pretty inefficient at times…

That said, its quite cool what small little humans do. I like the inflated watermelon. Keeps every chubby person running after chubby fruits.

Its true that experience matters a lot more in the real world, doesn’t it? For most professions, it seems so!

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Expectations thus become the ratio of actual experience / perceived experience. If the ratio is > 1, you impress people. Otherwise, you are just a disappointment. For instance, when you couldn’t walk, walking is an achievement, isn’t it =)