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Its been a long long time since I posted, I don’t know why but things whizzing past isn’t helping.

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I am insanely tired of everything and just want a breather. Once Fac CIP is over, I guess it is about time… I will no longer bother with certain other things or either that I will outsource it to other people.

Can’t believe I woke up crying (its been damn hell long since I did that) just simply because I dreamt that my mum was playing the piano beside a photo album of me when I was a child (this happens when memory is too good). It just goes to show how atrocious I have been to myself, and that I clearly lost things i cherish in my not-so-beautifully executed attempt to maximize profit per unit time from the school. This is pretty much embarrassing in its very own nature to admit it on my blog, but I guess I have blown my limits in terms of HCI and I want people to know that your requirements is not my job because I don’t get $$$ for it. As in seriously, I am tired of non lose-win community service. No moar.

Yet, there is nothing wrong with meritocracy working its way through. But I guess a lot of people can’t expect the same from me again…

I should review my policy of helping people who don’t appreciate it. The lackluster and near-absolute pathetic attitude towards life illuminates a path that tells me to draw clear boundaries with certain people…

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Maybe I will just write a book this year and not make notes anymore. Too disappointed at the school population to do it. Maybe only people who I deem worthy of it will get my notes. After all, its another way of inviting more people, alongside troublesome ones…

So they say, carpe diem. ~Off to Sleep~