Black and White

Now, other than the official black and white stuff, lets move on to something else.

Talking to art stream students who are ultra-passionate about their fields is rather interesting. Then again, I am inspired, hence I am writing this post.

Now, lets talk about brightness.

In this world, there are bright people.

However, 道高一尺，魔高一丈, hence the brighter you are, the darker you are (damn contradictory, but search yourself). I no longer view it as a 100% ratio for brightness and darkness.

I realize that there is no way to see the darkness in anyone directly if they are in the light, or see the brightness in them if they are in the dark. Hence, such a proportion of measurement is indeed a good gauge.

Proof:

Behind every person doing evil things, they do it for a cause, be it family, friends, brotherhood, loyalty whatever.

Behind every person who excels lies an untold tale of the darkness, hardship, breakdowns, setbacks that spurred his/her brightness on.

To inspire darkness, you have to be brighter than the rest, To inspire brightness,  you have to be darker than the rest. No one is truly good or bad, it is only how good or bad you can make others.

The problem with the people who shine so much is that they need people to shine on them.

The problem with people who lead a dark life is that they need a darker comparison.

So, how bright are you?  The brighter you are, the more vulnerable you are to darkness.

And don’t you think like every other metaphorical / questioning post, there is a hidden meaning?

Hence, don’t grow too smart k? You are not smart doing that.

Wondering what gone wrong

For everything damn thing this year, the maximum I attained is a 2nd. Never more, Always less. I wonder what the heck has happened. Got kicked out of certain competitions, but perhaps it might be, for the better.

For many, the above statement would be niao ttm, but please pardon a perfectionist’s rambling on his blog. Nonetheless, I am still thankful and  rather pleased about the MAC results (thanks a bunch to shao yun and ming kang)

On a side note, Today I watched 送行者 in Chinese class, it kinds of remind me about patience, and testing one’s patience. Me-Always-Everything, Not me-Always-Everything, I find the talk very fail considering there should be a 3rd side. After all I have experienced both so very well before.

It is also about time to launch the first EOY note. 3 to go. Damn lot of errors =\

Realizing…

I realize everyday that,

I only work  if there is a purpose.

But, I realize today that,

Purpose is people.

Perhaps you will realize later that,

people are limited.

Out from the minimum point.

As a follow up,

It is time to end the streak of Certificate of Patheticness. (ICAS 27/45… I must be slping, same for SJPO)

It is time to thrash more people (I have been getting thrashed, either I sway, noob, slping, whatever) .

It is time to do something, really, like DO SOMETHING. No one is doing anything in school now for god’s sake.

For those who hope that I will scam you a lot less in bridge, well you can pick the 3 hopes I give you: narrow hope, no hope, fat hope.

It feels good when the purpose in life comes back all of a sudden, esp. when you kind of need it.

Battling against, Battling with, the subconscious, or the reality

Dreams Dreams Dreams, hmm I kind of self-incepted myself today with a dream that made 10 hours of sleep seemed like 1 whole day.

It sort of gave me the impression that I could be brave, could be courageous, but was it really so because I clearly know I was in a dream? When you know you are in your own dream, the future of your dreams could be seen, like how exactly you would hope it could be. Died of a bullet shot, but I am wondering if I called in the shooter to appear for the mere fact to wake up to reality instead of dwelling in an untrue yet ideal environment and missing breakfast.

However, I could bring back what I have lost long ago back with me into reality. I no longer feel numb about many things,  the world was perhaps less dangerous, I could once again be more open, approach people with a more embracing mindset, being less mean (erm e.g. to little children).

Perhaps it is time my subconscious helped me out after I helped my subconscious out so much. It has been a relatively long time, since I felt, so… in place. What a nice dream =)

Because…

When the whole sec 4 batch has seriously nothing better to do, nearly everyone has switched off for god’s sake. Even I have lost much of my inner motivation. Gambling fever, gaming fever, slacking fever, real fever Haiz, i truly wonder how a bloody slacker like me can start mugging. =\

When no one lets me sit when i was a child in the bus, I similarly have a right to deny another child of that seat today. Everyone starts off being earth. Fire is contagious, and I will definitely fight a society of fire with my own fire (or what I define as ruthlessness or anger). If you think you got enough water to extinguish the fire in society, its like trying to tell me you can pour water over any Olympic flame and extinguish it (ah well that said YOG was success, I suppose).

Watching unriddle is kind of nostalgic of some of the past, especially if you can guess the person in charge for Yuze’s case (which given anyone who has ever once felt so jealous ttm can easily tell the culprit). Then again, I might be wrong, but what are the chances really? Perhaps my mind playing tricks with me, hmm.

When you know the world is a joke, there is such a thing called the Do Nothing Olympiad (DNO). Basically, when you go in there, you truly do nothing and really feel like sleeping. Whats more, the sentence in your mind before, during and after the session will be “I DNO”, which suggests that the DNO has truly achieved the objective of making everyone do nothing and don’t know anything, effectively wasting DNO how much time for DNO wad purpose.

I feel that I should be eating stuff now )=

…, …, …

Some people are like bulldozer, 1 dig and a big chunk of soil come out.

Mirror mirror on the wall, shadow shadow on the floor, you see yourself and you see your past.

I feel like buying over the damn construction company, the people inside though unintended, somehow make me flashback. I really damn hate flashbacks. Its bloody torturing in every way.

Its not anyone’s fault, but there is no priest either to remove this stupid ghost haunting me….

The recent Manila incident has prompted many to ask whether life was so fragile. I would first like to ask why not, followed by would you be happy if you were to die now?  People don’t quite get it what is the most precious thing that they will lose if they die now, esp. for the case of Dominic Cheong who still fails to decrypt my message after more than enough hinting considering he is supposed to be better than me. Go think really, that applies to all.

Then, go treasure. Don’t be like me, and my past.  The choice, is yours.

Please follow my quote of “Don’t be joke”

Random rant over an ever-stupider admin:

Come on teachers, you can go one big round but thats not quite the point if I already know the story before you even talk anything to me about it. Neither do you exactly need to cheat on me because I can see through all your lies. You can outsmart a student in their knowledge, but not in terms of brain, esp. not when trying to 绕一圈 SHOOT 我, because I everyday 绕一圈 SHOOT 你.

The school is rather communist, in the sense that everyone is supposed to get an equal opportunity. Erh in case you don’t quite the background the in charge is asking me nicely to give up 1 WDA so that some other joker can get the WDA when I already have one.

I don’t quite care, at least I know the person who complained, well you didn’t really have to go all out to fight with me over such small things (我认为小人只能做小事). I am just concerned how the school can give an equal opportunity to students when I fought so hard for my skill and position from lower to upper sec. That is just FK unfair if you quite get it, and unrealistic in singaporean/most meritocratic environments, suggesting students will merely die in the outside world.

Yes I know this is elitist, but if people cannot adapt the idea of  ”survival of the fittest” (harsh crude reality I learnt throughout my whole upper sec), they should seriously do smth about it while they are in the school virtual machine.

Hence, may I appeal to both the school and those 小人 out there, to follow my quote of  ”Don’t be Joke”.

There is a problem when practicing massive self defense verbally, physically and spiritually, and conceptually. You tend to take the opponent out first.

Falling

This post is a dedication, not my reflections, so yah feel free to see the contrast.

I borrowed a book on Physics based animation. it just so happens that everything seem so related to time. For instance, the equation of spline is generalized as C(U(s(t))).  t is time, ignore the rest for now, but at least we know it revolves around time.

People are magnetic. People like and hate things. But, sometimes a repulsion accidentally pushes one off the table. As we all know, you lose your magnetism, you become non-magnetic. All the dipoles are in a mess, so are you. In a magnetic field of magnets, how could emptiness not exist?

If you wish to gain back your magnetism, there are a few methods. The first one is called stroking, getting induced by a strong magnet to slowly regain magnetism properties. The second is called electromagnet, i.e. passing a current to shock you. That is however, not realistic.

To kickstart, whats your favourite activity? Whats your favourite fiction? Where do you like to go? Where are your other friends?

Tick tock tick tock, if you don’t accept the fact that you fell of the table, you accept that you will be left behind by time.

Face it this once bravely, and a thousand other times will be as simple. =)

Inverted

Things that I throw in so much more effort in and have use, i get a bloody A for it. Things that are so typical, yet under proper supervision and guidance, I get an A* for it. Of course, If I did not sweep WDA then I won’t be me.

I mean honestly what has the school degraded into hur? Self-study physics? Competition-based mindset? Joke admins that send 4 levels down for lunch at the same time to generate the infamous “queue longer than dragon” effect? Smoking more important than anything else? Doing really useless things when there is nothing to teach? Is a new modified product more important than a new theory? Is this what has become of education?

Its either our education has exceeded the standards of certain administration or they are sleeping. If you do not wish to fall prey to such eternal slumber, you can either change school or live through it, but most importantly learn from external sources. I have verified countless times a few teacher’s incapability to teach. I mean if you screw up, really in the end its you who gg, not the smokers with the card to access staff room.

The school doesn’t appreciate me, of course not. I won’t appreciate the school either, I will only appreciate true blue teachers who silently acknowledge my presence.  Yeap, I am trained to disregard any organization that mistreat me. Its just 2 more months isn’t it? And then its JC. I wonder how would life there be. Meaninglessly busy or busily meaningless, or could it actually be meaningful?

Looking back, it has always been important to have 3 plans, for instance it saved my life during pday this year.

Plan A) Whack the most confident one with full force

Plan B) Whack an easier one with minimal force but maximum external help.

Plan C) Don’t Whack at All