Making the Cut

At first sight that simply means borrowing the scissors. I am more inclined to prove otherwise.

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Watching Ip Man and Ip Man 2 (He’s quite Ip really) makes me feel, somewhat painful, yet to the slightest extent noble.

Firstly, let’s admit it that fine, when it comes to IT stuff most people find me. But you see, that is precisely what I do not want, and in my whole ring of close friends (and anyone closer), I can proudly say NONE OF THEM found me their good friend because of that, and chances are I would not be your good friend if I met you because of it. Regardless, I still do  it, reluctantly or not my punctuality will tell. But yet, if no one did it, what would be the end result? Just like how you have the kick the **** out of Japanese and Western Boxers, you stand up when people need you. But not anymore in the future unless it threatens my family.

I am, if anything, a very neutral person. I do not like to mess with people’s business unless people interfere with mine. I just like to enjoy my private life you see. Portfolio, unfortunately, erases that impression of me from most people as I have been gradually replaced with a more metallic tank. It was a necessary sacrifice for air-con, house and coping with inflation.

So if you ask me my hobby? I guess it is really to just sit down in the park and play chinese chess while drinking chinese tea. I owe such zen endeavors to rich culture I guess.

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I remember people saying I look so scary during DnD before the party haha. It is true.

I present a professional and cold image when dealing with business or formal events, a take it in my stride and joker attitude for friends and a rarely seen dedication and warmth to anyone surpassing the friend level. It is the reason why people have so many sides to say about me, and why I just find everything, interesting per se.

The question you should ask yourself after this assuming you think I am your friend is,

whether I consider you my family, my friend or my business client.

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Tip: If you belong to the last category, the first 3 sentences you hear from me is:

1) Just Shoot.

2) Okay so what do I get?

3) I will get back to you.

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I should shut up and go practice 气功 I guess. NAPFA is coming.

The Fine Line.

The finishing touch that denotes the 180 degree experience between love and hate. So similar yet so different.

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When you hate, you do your work at 120% effort, you work towards exacting 120% pain you were put through on your nemesis/enemy, you work on 120% of your normal workload, you derive 120% multiply by 0 amount of joy and you lose memory 120% faster than average.

Yet, you complete 60% of the work.

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When you love, you do your work at 50% effort, you work towards providing 50% of the shared amount of love with everyone, you work on 50% of your normal workload, you derive 50% multiplied by (1/0) amount of joy and you lose memory at 50% the rate of an average person.

Yet, you complete 100% of the work.

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Its the reason why when 2 people hate each other,

you get a productivity of 60%+60% = 120% efficiency.

But when 2 people love each other,

you get a productivity of 100%+100% = 200% efficiency.

If you are 2 normal people, then its pretty simple because both would just contribute a fair share and:

productivity = 50%+50%=100%.

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For where I get the percentages, just look at my HP level in runescape, if you get what I mean =)

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Is it wrong to…

want to do only 1 thing at a time?

want to do only things that are meaningful to you?

and of course,

to study.

I want to be a student again. Not a slave. Kthanksbai.

I shall attempt to answer this question by A levels this year:

Does an attempt to make someone stupid make the person smarter or more stupid?

This will be the key defining factor of the success of the education system  I have been put through the past 6 years.

You know everytime someone asks me to do something,

I really feel stupid doing it and feel that it is stupid to begin with. But I have to admit if you have stuff like 独孤九剑 then you will be way smarter.

There are reasons why I don’t ask people to do stuff or worry about me most of the time, cos I just don’t believe in certain principles.

But what can I do, I am a student anyway.

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Control and Diversity

Control has been well explored enough here, so I shall just add-on instead of re-typing everything:

Control eliminates diversity.

For instance, when you can control all pigs to fly, then all pigs will fly and none will continue rolling in the mud (and maybe laughing xD) if you so wish.

And then when you lose all control,

don’t you think the pigs will still fly? I doubt they know erm, how to land safely ;)

Maybe the only type of pigs that retain some degree of uniqueness by then are piggy banks. No owner wants to make those pigs fly you know.

 

2012 and the 1440×900

I don’t know if anyone is waiting for this, but I guess I shall do mine too while I erm, have some time when people go partying xD (I kinda stopped lol). [Oops this post is a bit late because I fell ill for the whole of 1st Jan haha...]

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First, we take a look at the past year:

(Sort of) Regrets [I don't regret most things I do in my life]

1) Being inhuman because I needed a very very artificial boost in self-esteem

Basically put, it really made me a non-pro and made me lose a very very significant portion of sleep per year haha. Since most juniors coined the schedule is inhuman mmm I will leave it as that… but having tested so deep the waters of the school, it is time to start surfacing and gasp for some fresh air once I clear the seaweed that is keeping me trapped under the sea ;)

2) Near-zero gossip acquisition

If there was anything i missed at school, its probably that. I never bothered spending so much time on trying to know what happened to person X etc. because essentially it was non-relevant to me. Of course, certain things made me felt that perhaps when time permits, its crucial I get bombarded by such useless information too… because simply put the definition of use has changed over the course of many years =) But of course, the true cause remains ;)

(Sort of) Learning points

It is one hell of a crazy year with me running across most of Singapore so mmm:

- Don’t take any OMO job –> It doesn’t matter whether you are pretty darn good at OMO, but you just have to keep in mind that things that require team effort, illness, family and whatnot will probably leave you with those ‘clock is ticking’ scenarios for your OMO duties.

- Don’t do anything you don’t like –> seriously, you just can’t do anything you don’t like, and I think I only don’t like 1 thing for 2011…

Ok there aren’t that many apparently… either that it was already in my list…

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Stuff to experience / learn in 2012

1) Go learn how to mug properly

For A levels, for IOI, for H3, whatever. Mugging properly is the (unfortunate) key to success.

2) Learn how to sing

I think I am really pathetic at singing but I guess it is important I learn how to do so moderately well… otherwise haha I become non-musical alr =P

3) Physical

Lol recurring statement. Let’s hope I get better at it after coming back from Cambodia.

4) Be more responsible

Admittedly, I had to admit my responsibility rate across all commitments is about erm, 80% or so. I always believe I can do better, but I wonder about my commitment to my own health… back injuries and falling ill quite frequently recently isn’t helping ><

5) Be less serious

Seriously I think I have to try an achieve this otherwise I will be pretty much a joke -.-

6) Cycling

If I ever get the chance, it is good year to find some day to learn this cool shit with regards to balancing…

7) Know more useful / practical stuff

Maybe I should learn some degree of plumbing / TCM / furniture composition / etc. etc. etc. whenever I am free haha. Trusting salesmen isn’t my way to go =\

8) Get *ahem*, more sleep

We will see how this goes, but it is time to resolve to cut down to 18 hour working day including all 3 meals and random stuff. =)

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*Tired*. Slept for 16 hours on 1/1/2012… Oversleep alr la.

In theory, In practice. In perspective, In reality.

1) Theory and practice.

I am pretty much tired of the theory of life and everything else. If you have realized I have given up on it and instead focus more on my internal conflict and external conflicts *ahem*, now is the time where technique and skill matters, and really, nothing else does.

2) Perspective and Reality

Reality: I am very tired. Very tired of everthing, and I just want to stop, combined by the fact that my breaking point has been triggered more than half the time this year I am really very tired, and I have got no good rest (ISYF IS MY ONLY REST, the work is, surprisingly easy to do for such a long buffer time).

Perspective: If I am to survive, this song is and will be my mentality (You should know the song anyway, its not that new):

What are you waiting for?
Nobody’s gonna show you how
Why work for someone else
To do what you can do right now?

Got no boundaries and no limits
If there’s excitement, put me in it
If it’s against the law, arrest me
If you can handle it, undress me

Don’t stop me now, don’t need to catch my breath
I can go on and on and on
When the lights go down and there’s no one left
I can go on and on and on

Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna stop me now

They say that a good thing never lasts
And then it has to fall
Those are the the people that did not
Amount to much at all

Give me the bass line and I’ll shake it
Give me a record and I’ll break it
There’s no beginning and no ending
Give me a chance to go and I’ll take it

Don’t stop me now, don’t need to catch my breath
I can go on and on and on
When the lights go down and there’s no one left
I can go on and on and on

Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna stop me now

Watch this

Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it (What?)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it (What?)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it (What?)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it

Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it
(To the left, to the right, to the left, to the right)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it
(To the left, to the right, to the left, to the right)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don’t stop it
(To the left, left, right, right, left, left, right, right)
Get stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid…
(Left, left, right, right, left, left, right, right)

Don’t stop me now, don’t need to catch my breath
I can go on and on and on
When the lights go down and there’s no one left
I can go on and on and on

Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna stop me now

You’re only here to win
Get what they say?
You’re only here to win
Get what they do?
They’d do it too
If they were you
You done it all before
It ain’t nothing new

You’re only here to win
Get what they say?
You’re only here to win
Get what they do?
They’d do it too
If they were you
You done it all before
It ain’t nothing new

Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna stop me now

Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one’s gonna stop me now

Give it to me

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If you do not yet feel the exasperation yet, I shall be honest here. All I am interested is making my way out of everything alive and intact. It is no longer a goal I am achieving, it is more of me escaping for my life. Get it? My life. Get it?

Because unlike last time where I work for the credit, I now work for really, my life.

Point Blank Range

Coming up with my new year resolution (this year’s gonna be bigger! I want 1440 by 900), and yes there are certain things I have put off to deal with myself.

I realize the fact that this is the 2nd post with this title means that I probably been through this part of life, except that this time no one was aiming the gun at me.

I am aiming the gun.

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Over the past 3 days I have been thinking of a word which I will publicly bust today, its called overcommitment. And true enough, I am not the only one to bust it.

Simply put, commitment is an all or nothing thing. You either commit, or you participate. And perhaps sometimes with this clarity of thought now I finally see that my loyalties belong nowhere except to me, and that, to some extent, people can’t see the difference between me committing and me participating, because people do not use the word ‘participate’ any longer. Hence, I will officially throw that word out of my dictionary.

I have also learn to realize that seriously joking and jokingly serious are really 2 different things. You used to think people were seriously joking when they think you are pro or what, but now you think that it is still pretty much a joke and that you ought to do something about it.

Here’s my main point of the day, before I continue trying to decide if I should still use my macbook display for my new year resolutions:

I realize that my strength is derived in burning. I only fret for the fact that if I continue to burn in the same direction, I will burn my fingers, and perhaps, a slight tongue of flame would just touch you.

And after the main point, here’s the side point:

And I realize that all the while, what I needed was a fire extinguisher ;)